This week I am going to share a couple of situations that I was involved in. This past Saturday it was kind of a rainy day. So delivering pizzas and a rainy Saturday equal a pretty busy day. Around 6:00pm we were slammed and we are all trying to get out the door with our deliveries. Well Todd was ahead of me and he checked out his order. I went to check out mine and my delivery wasn’t on the board. I told Todd that he checked out my order, he said here is my order. I told him yes that is your delivery slip but here is the credit card slip you checked out the wrong one!! Then I yelled at him that he has to pay attention!! As soon as I over reacted I was immediately aware of my mistake. Once he went on his delivery and I went on mine that situation played on my mind. I had no right to treat him that way. I know Todd has MS and when it gets busy he struggles and has a tough time reading the delivery screen. I know this and I still over reacted. I was really upset with myself!! I know I could have done better, and I should not have reacted that way. When things settled down, I did apologize and said I should not have reacted the way I did!! He did accept my apology and said don’t let it happen again. I told him I would try my best.
I just wanted to share this and remind myself that I need to do better and can always improve.
The next situation happened earlier in the week. All the drivers had come in and it wasn’t extremely busy but we had a different manager closing and I had never worked with her when she was the manager in charge to determine when I go home. I usually always ask if it OK to go home when it is not extremely busy. I went up to her after almost working 10 hours and asked if I was able to get out soon as I had a conference call I wanted to listen to at 7:30pm She said I will let you know when you can go home. So I ended up taking a few more deliveries and didn’t get out until 8:00pm and missed my conference call. When she said I could go home she said I was looking for you to go home but you were always out on deliveries. The next night I was told by one of the other drivers that she hates it when drivers ask her to go home so I will keep him later. The other driver said she is a b**** and on a power trip. I could just feel the anger seeping into my body. Every time she came into the building the rest of the week I could just feel my dislike for this woman escalate.
Every morning I read the 7 Laws of the Mind and one of them is the Law of Forgiveness. “We must forgive everyone and anyone to clear the channel. There can be no connection to the Divine where anger or resentment against a brother or sister justified or not exists.” I need to be honest here, this week has not been easy. I see her truck pull up and I just feel these negative feelings come in. I am working on it. I am trying to use the Law of Dual Thought, if this is the negative there has to be a positive, somewhere, what is the positive? Well I think I found something that I can call positive, actually two things. One, I didn’t hear her say she wanted to keep me later, so I don’t know if the other driver was telling the truth. Second, if it was true, I keep on telling myself “I love Laurie because she motivates me.” Every time I want to slack off with my new Network Marketing Business I just tell myself that is going to be more time that you are going to need to work with her.
I am going to open this up to anyone that has an opinion of how to handle this I would appreciate your feedback.
Thank you for letting me rant and for your suggestions.
As always, my wish for you is that you are whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, healthy, harmonious and happy.